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illmakeitRealFebruary 12 sunrays through the smokey windowLyrics
As soon as I hit the pavement, I could see straight The stars round my head made a beautiful shape Was a voice out of nowhere, a flower in the dark The blood on my face kind of looked like a heart I looked in the mirror, had a good laugh To think that I was so convinced my hell would never end But, I'm crawling towards the surface I'm clinging to the... Love I found, at the bottom of a well in hell Anywhere that I can be, I can feel it loving me Some days seem like a funeral starring me Anywhere that I can be, something's always loving me I can feel it, I can feel it I can feel it loving me I can feel it, I can feel it I can feel it loving me I can feel it, I can feel it I can feel it loving me I can feel it, I can feel it I can feel it loving me So now the window is open, nothing's the same I see lace on my bandage, beauty and pain If I could only remember why I'm okay My face would stop bleeding and I'd feel no pain But I've still got these wounds, they're not even scars I've still got the screaming bottled up inside my head But, I'm knocking through my breakdown I'm looking for the... Love I found, at the bottom of a well in hell Anywhere that I can be, I can feel it loving me Some days seem like a funeral starring me Anywhere that I can be, love is gonna get to me I can feel it, I can feel it I can feel it loving me I can feel it, I can feel it I can feel it loving me I can feel it, I can feel it I can feel it loving me I can feel it, I can feel it I can feel it loving me August 26 awayalways searching
unsatisfied
charming lies
the desire dies
spit them out
the wall shouts
back again
waiting for that day
away
March 19 a hint of inspirationIts been a while since I've been inspired. and how numb and pained I've felt and am sure I will again soon. It's 8 am here in Seoul, South Korea. The calm silence outside my window took my mind to a place. I felt lucky cause as i get older it feels like i have to work hard to control my mind to relax and it rarely works anyways. but not today... it just happened......... I was in a place of comfort.... even in Korea i can remember a hint of what it felt like when i was a child, when i was in love, when i could actually feel that i understood. And even if its not healthy to reminisce... i always have a craving for the world around me to take me back... to match today with the simple yesterday.... like how it feels when the sun embraces the ground, buildings, mountains with an orange glow, or how i am in a trance when i notice the wet concrete, fog or smells of spring, or how it feels when i laugh so hard it makes me cry... or when your 5 years old and you finally have that candy that seems like the greatest thing the world -how moments like that make all my senses harmonize. Maybe i crave to escape. But i feel a sense of magic when all my senses are sort of enlightened ...when i feel what i felt when i was 7 or 12 or 16 or 26. a parallel of happiness. When i think about it... these moments were more common when i was younger... i guess everything was so new ...it was easier to look at the world with a freshness... maybe there is a way that i can still do that... i believe i do, but i has drastically faded and i dont want it to fade any more than it has...
Love
i think im going to go back to bed now  August 20 maybe i quoted this before..."Form is emptiness;
emptiness is form. Form is not other than emptiness, emptiness is not other than form." -Buddism
its still mind bending to me... takes a while to refresh its meaning... but once it comes into focus... there is perspective/clarity again.
July 27 just a coincidence?So about an hour ago, i met an older woman at the bus stop. She made small talk with me and we seemed to enjoy eachothers company. Although i didnt know much about her, I felt comfortable talking to her... like we already new eachother. then suddenly I found out that we had the same birthday! I dont think i have ever met someone who shared the same birthday as me within 5 minutes of meeting them. plus meeting someone with the same birthday is rare enough. She was 56 though. hehe. I dont know, it was a special moment for me. Good things are happening
   
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