Its been a while since I've been inspired. and how numb and pained I've felt and am sure I will again soon.  It's 8 am here in Seoul, South Korea.  The calm silence outside my window took my mind to a place.  I felt lucky cause as i get older it feels like i have to work hard to control my mind to relax and it rarely works anyways. but not today... it just happened......... I was in a place of comfort.... even in Korea i can remember a hint of what it felt like when i was a child, when i was in love, when i could actually feel that i understood.  And even if its not healthy to reminisce... i always have a craving for the world around me to take me back... to match today with the simple yesterday.... like how it feels when the sun embraces the ground, buildings, mountains with an orange glow, or how i am in a trance when i notice the wet concrete, fog or smells of spring,  or how it feels when i laugh so hard it makes me cry... or when your 5 years old and you finally have that candy that seems like the greatest thing the world -how moments like that make all my senses harmonize. Maybe i crave to escape. But i feel a sense of magic when all my senses are sort of enlightened ...when i feel what i felt when i was 7 or 12 or 16 or 26. a parallel of happiness. When i think about it... these moments were more common when i was younger... i guess everything was so new ...it was easier to look at the world with a freshness... maybe there is a way that i can still do that... i believe i do, but i has drastically faded and i dont want it to fade any more than it has...

 

Love

 

i think im going to go back to bed now